New Grooves and Moves

I decided to get my lazy ass up early today and went to the 6am PiYo class at the gym. I was thinking yesterday that I get bored too often and find a lot of free time oddly enough. I like to stay busy too and when I want to be lazy as fuck it never seems to swing my way anyways so I'm constantly finding other shit to do. With five kids, a husband, two cats, a dog and two jobs I naturally stay busy anyways (how could I not?) but still find free time and think I could be more constructive with said time. I also need me time after hellish days and I do have to say that I'm one of those lucky wife's whose husband tries his best to give me lazy days or even moments that are just for myself and he's pretty damn good at keeping his wife happy. I'm just fucking lucky he's put up with this crazy all these years. I tell myself I must just be some good damn crazy I suppose. *wink*wink*

I have stuff I need to get done though, feelings I need to feel, energy I need to harvest and use for later so I figure I need to get more on my game. More on point as my 13yo says. This time though with choices that will sustain even in the very long run.

Today is day 1 of get my ass up because I have nothing else to do. This morning I was up probably about 430 although I didn't check the clock as we all know that's a no no because if we do it's going to be like 3 minutes until the alarm; I went pee, and I laid back down and then didn't go back to sleep. I laid there and thought about if I was going to get my ass up at 530 and head to the gym. I thought about what I was going to make for dinner and decided -

Insert song lyric here because I'm writing and singing at the same time and it spoke to me and I thought I should share the line with the rest of you. Lyric by Jason Miraz from I'm Your's.

"It's our godforsaken right to be loved, loved, loooved, loooved, looooooved." Damn straight is all I have to say about that. Anyways...

- that I didn't know. Then I thought again if I was going to get my ass up this morning. My next thought baffled me and it will you too. I WAS ALREADY FUCKING UP. Seriously people. Here I am laying in bed knowing I'm not going to be able to go back to sleep, doing a hell of a lot of unnecessary thinking and already giving myself anxiety at 5am when I could just lay there and relax until my alarm goes off and then get up and take my ass to the gym and give my mind something to do. Whew. That was a lot. But I COULD give my mind something to do which is NOTHING. That's right. Fucking nothing but relax and let thoughts flow freely or not at all while also exercising my body and getting stretched and toned. After an hour of that I can come home and drink this new concoction my sister-in-law showed me to help stay healthy...thanks Alexis, love you girl.

So that's exactly what I did.

Moral of the story is make better choices and use the intuition that I know you have and really use it to figure out what is best for you. I've made these mistakes so many times myself. This time though I'm going with my schedule, mental and physical. I'm more alert in the morning and I already wake up early for work. I'm already on an early schedule. My thoughts before were centered around wanting to sleep in but that was because I wasn't getting enough sleep. I knew I wasn't getting enough sleep but Ry and I have been such night owls since the beginning. When I started this 6am to 6pm shift at work everyone had to adapt to new schedules. So now my husband is up around 545-6 and I'm up 5-15 so waking up that early on my days off made sense. I couldn't sleep anyways. Why torture my mind when I could workout my body and mind. Plus I enjoy working out and I really fucking LOVE feeling more energized and sexy.

Don't think I'm still not tired though or that some mornings I don't want to sleep in because I DO. Just this past weekend my husband made sure I was able to sleep in Saturday and Sunday he actually slept in past 6. He felt pretty good I think. Point being is that I also long for lazy days where I'm only responsible for myself and get to hang out with my husband or friends. I also long to be healthy, and at least semi-fit. I want to keep growing intellectually and teaching my children how to love while also constantly learning myself, because sometimes loving is hard.

I don't know about you but my morning has been pretty great so far and I plan to continue that through my Monday and on into tomorrow and the rest of the week. I plan to do another tea leaf reading for myself, figure out dinner, maybe take a walk with the three toddlers and if possible a short nap later during quiet time. I plan to work on my patience and relaxing the rest of the week while also focusing a little more on my business. I've had a tough go as of late so I've been doing a lot more meditation and therapeutic practices, exercising and raising my vibrations and I already feel better. It's always easier to notice the change when you stop doing what makes you feel better versus when you start. I definitely notice myself more when in lower vibrational status. Ugh. Cheers to being a conscious and aware individual.

Insert more song lyrics here.

"I wanna celebrate and live my life" lyrics from Taio Cruz and they couldn't ring more true the last couple years. I get in my own funks but I come out of them quicker these days and I'm able to live more which is exactly what this human experience is about.

Three things that I'm grateful for today are

*Support systems and people that I love

*The power to create and the will to achieve anything I want in my life

*Hot water

*A husband that allows me to take nice long hot showers and pamper myself when he knows I'm about to rip all my beautiful hair out and go all Britney Spears on him

So here's to a good Monday all! Let me know in the comments what you're grateful for and what are some goals you have. #livelove #livinglovecoaching