Vengeful B*t*h*s

I really, down to my core, despise with all my energy the act of being vengeful.

I won't lie though. I used to be a very vengeful person and I know how to make people seriously wish they never crossed whatever boundary they did with me.

But....that was the old Nicole. The immature INFJ who had no idea what the hell was going on and why she was such a black sheep. A person who knew she had to stand up for herself but was doing it in all the wrong ways. A young girl who knew she was different than the rest of the world, didn't know where she fit in but was always determined to figure out who she was and what her purpose in this world was for; she wanted to meet her potential, exceed it, then start all over again.

I was mean there for a few years. Those years though, they really helped push me to be the better version of myself, to raise my energy and vibrations and to help me actually be the potential I was always meant to be.

But...I still, to this day, can't get over that pitiful disgusting person I was for awhile.

Thank the Goddess I started to figure out my life.

Thank the Universe for guiding me.

Thank the Goddess and the Universe for where I am now.

I put int he work and am now able to reap the benefits. I earned my current life.

I want to clarify that I am NOT that vengeful person I am now. But because I went through what I did, was the person I was years ago, I do know how it feels and what life looks like as a vengeful person. I was that person. I'm ashamed to say it but I was. I used to hurt people emotionally on purpose.

And then I realized that I should never use my gifts for negative intentions and I moved on and grew up.

Here I am now telling you to NOT be a vengeful person after my confession. Maybe it will deter you, enlighten you, and help you grow a tad. Maybe.

Don't ever be that person. Don't decide that because you've been tortured all your life or even once that you now have the right to torture others. Don't be that person. Don't let that dark side be more than your light.

I know you can do it. I know you can beat the dark. I did.

I recently caught myself in a situation where I had someone try to not only intimidate me but also threaten and lie to me. I caught on quick and wasn't fooled, shutting their tactics down and preserving my power.

Don't get me wrong, I faltered a couple times but ultimately conquered the quest of not being intimidated, threatened, and lied too.

This person feels inadequate in her life, to herself, to others. She is struggling with her own power, confidence, self-love and life in general and thus has to exert those strenuous emotions upon others in order to "feel" as if she has gained her power back. In laymen terms, she has to be a bully in order to feel more in control to get her emotions back on track which will get her life back on track so she can be happy again, feel in control of her life and everyone/everything around her.

Except it doesn't actually work that way.

Unfortunately there are other situations happening where truly vengeful intentions are at play involving this individual and I feel sorry for them.

I really do hope they find more peace within themselves.

Don't be that person. Don't be a vengeful bitch. Don't be mean to someone else because they were mean to you. This is basic guys. But truly act it out in your life.

When someone takes a painful emotional verbal jab at you be a rubber band and let it bounce off of you. Don't try and give back what you were given.

Instead give back love, light, insight, empowerment and positive energy and vibes.

Catch yourself making a better choice.

It's hard sometimes but very possible.

It's possible to live a life and not be the vengeful emotional roller coaster that is embraced by a lot. Don't feed into that characteristic.

Don't be a vengeful bitch.

Live love. #livinglovecoaching